Thursday, May 29, 2008

meaningless

i used to be a lazy bone.....
i think i am the type of people which have a lot of thoughts in head...
but never do anything to make them come true....
sometimes...
i will feel deeply regret and awful....
the next minute...
u will see me stick in front of laptop...
like nothing happen before at all...

so i said i am not that kind of person who will commit suicide...
even i am not the best in all the area...
i won't feel that depress...
maybe just crying or throwing things...
then i will be fine...
i know i should be cherish and appreciate what i have in my live...
since i didn't sacrifice or work damn hard for my life ever...
i have no reasons to claim that "unfair"

i know this is meaningless....
but days are so boring...
have no heart to study...so just write something....

Friday, May 23, 2008

frustration

i feel deeply disappointed to myself....
i already tired of listening myself regret again and again...
since when i lose all my concentration for my studies?
or...perhaps i never give all out...
i really dun wan to think about how terrible i had done in physics paper...
i think even a form 5 student can do the paper better than i ever did....
what a idiot am i...
can even control myself...even a little determination...
if i continue be like this...
will i have the strength to pursue my dream?

Monday, May 19, 2008

bla bla bla

life...it wont be exactly what u hope for...along the way of life...frustration and uncertainty will always block your way...

chance...will only approach to u once...it wont wait for u to decide...when u realized....it already gone....

live...just once...never have take two...so one should never regret about the choices he or she made....

time...will wait for no man...the time that u waste will never ever come back...don't ever believe the electronic kitten and the time machine....


Thursday, May 15, 2008

fly me to the moon


Fly me to the moon
And let me play among the stars
Let me see what spring is like
On Jupiter and Mars
In other words hold my hand
In other words darling kiss me

Fill my life with song
And let me sing forevermore
You are all I hope for
All I worship and adore
In other words please be true
In other words I love you

In other words please be true
In other words I love you


this is the song i currently in love of....a relaxing song
the lyrics is very romantic as well.....
do u feel in love edi???


Monday, May 12, 2008

about my dream

my ambition is to become an interior designer....
when i told my friend about it....they all seem so shock....
they know i like act....but they thought i already give it up...because i already in form 6...science stream...they think if i want to become an interior designer...why i continue my study in form 6 science stream...but not straight go to study in private college???
frankly....i think it's all because of i was not determine enough at that moment......
and i also questioning myself....is that want i want for the rest of life??
i confused....
so i choose to continue my study in form 6 science stream....because i need sometimes to figure out what i want....
finally....i found it....but then the questions are all coming to my face....
as you all know....dream is dream....reality will not be exactly the same about what you dream of....
if i decide to study interior design...i sure gonna be suffer for the first or even second or third year...does it worth???
to start everything from the beginning...when everyone is way far ahead from u....just to pursue a dream that even yourself have no idea whether it gonna success or not.... i really dunno whether i can take that....if everything in my world falls all apart....
so i really need to do a lot of research about it...whether am i suitable for study in interior design....
well....i won't find out what will it be if i dun try...to pursue my dream...i willing to take the risk...
about form 6....i won't think that it is the worst decision i ever made....
because i believe that everyone has his own faith....
if i didn't study in form 6...i won't understand that time and tile wait for no men....i won't be able to have such a great time together with my fellow friends...and i won't figure out i really dun like science....
for friends who love and care about me...i really really appreciate you all....

what i need to do now is to do whatever i can to get the best stpm result.....
because without it....dream is just a bubble....