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Day by day

2011-07-03T23:48:00.002+08:00

day by day

my internship is more than half way there

i haven't clear my head out for a lot of stuffs while the time is already ticking

all i have to do is just keep my pace up and sort things out

can i?

2010-12-17T05:50:00.001+08:00

I go back to December turn around and make it alright
I go back to December turn around and change my own mind
I'd go back in time and change it but i can't
I go back to December all the time
all the time

2010-12-15T22:21:00.002+08:00

planning to dye my hair with Liese Bubble Hair Colour ^^ TMR!!!!
SoOooo nervous....
still hesitating on what colour should i go for....
plan to got for ash brown at first
but the outcome at the packaging seems to be so dull.... /_\
then now plan to go for mashmallow brown ^^
it look more close to the outcome that i want ^^
wish me all the best for tmr ^^
kaka XD

2010-12-14T23:33:00.000+08:00

i'm a time wasting machine.
when i was wasting my time...what flow though my finger tips?

2010-12-12T13:12:00.002+08:00

Mum & Dad,
i never doubt about u love me
but i really hope to try myself before getting helps from u
just let me fall down before u can pull me up again
u think that by not getting help form u, i'm arrogant
that hurts
life is hard
it's time for me to face the reality of life
i dunno whether will u understand me
but i know i dissapointed u once again
i such a stubborn and arrogant daughter to u
believe me
i'm not meant to have this fight
just let me make mistakes and learn from it
sorry and i love u.

Opps...

2010-07-06T00:04:00.002+08:00

^^ sorry that i abandoned u for such a long time....

*ps : u = my blog

lonely lonely b'day

2010-04-03T23:12:00.002+08:00

to be honest...
i was really upset right now...
coz my sis juz blew me out on my coming b'day celebration movie plan...
super frustrated and upset now....
i'm so over the lonely b'day thing...
urgh.....

CNY

2010-02-18T02:00:00.003+08:00

i thought i used to be an independent girl...
where loneliness is nothing to me...
but i seems wrong lately...
maybe because of this festive seasons seem not too in the mood of cny used to be...
people who used to be with me isn't there...
this cny just seem so weird for me...
would it because of i have longer holidays than i used to have in school??
would it because of the rare chill weather today...cny should be hot right??
maybe i should just keep watching "heroes" or doing my assignments so that i wont keep thinking and feeling the loneliness that I'm not used to...

I love u,Dad!

2010-02-10T13:32:00.002+08:00

plz dun be shock since it's not father's day...
but i really love my dad recently...
this is all because....
everytime i coming back...
he'll ask...did i have my meal properly?? y i've become so skinny...
this is the best compliment i ever had...lol
since i' getting fatter and fatter....
i love u, dad!

it's 7 hours more to 2010

2009-12-31T16:17:00.003+08:00

it's just hours to go for the reaching of 2010...
there's so many things happen in 2009....

i got my stpm result which is hazardous...
me and other snakiss members are finally all apart from each other
i entered utm to study id=industrial design, not interior design....
i thought I'll study in skudai but i end up in kl campus....
finally...i dun need to go tuition anymore....
i design a lamp very firstly...even though it was sucks
etc....

i hope that i can learn from all the failure things i had gone though...
to make myself a better person...
so here's my new year resolution

i want to reduce my weight a bit by doing exercises daily and diet control...
i need study harder to increase my cgpa
i need to be alert and always remind myself when i start procrastinate
i must take good care of myself so that mum and dad wont be so worry about me
i must remember to call mum and dad at least once a week
i need to have some times to contact with snakiss members by email,call.sms,msn,skype and etc....
i must fulfill all my resolutions this year!

it's a wrap

2009-11-04T09:48:00.002+08:00

finally and FINALLY
my 1st sem finally finish...
finally...
i'm ready for my holidays
seems a bit over excited.
i have a lot of plans in my mind...
how i'm going to span my holidays...
1. go have fun with snakiss
2.visit singapore for about 2 weeks...
3.mb..try to generate some knowledge about design
4.Enjoy~~~
hehe...kinda excited about the singapore trip coz i never been there before even i stay just in malaysia,even my brother is stay in singapore....
wish me all the best in my finals...the truth is going to unreveal in 2 weeks....

this is the way i miss u all...

2009-08-11T02:05:00.001+08:00

*i know my desk is really really terribly messy...

07.07.09

2009-07-07T22:25:00.003+08:00

today supposed to be a sunny day...
but somehow...
today the sky seems a little grey which i thought it will be in babyblue...
winds blow away my thoughts of being not lonely...
really do miss u all...
but we're so damn far away...

where is my LOVE??

2009-07-07T22:16:00.002+08:00

where is my heart???
my heart was missing...
i found it gone during my English for academic communication class...

Red Bean Soup

2009-07-07T22:07:00.001+08:00

my mum will always prepare red bean soup for me since it's my favorite...
it's a sense of warm,love and care...
coz my mum need to cook it for at least 3 or 4 hours...
i know it's really tough to take good care of family...
it requires a lots of strength mentally and physically...
sorry that i couldn't go back home that frequent...
sorry that i used to be so arrogant which i never listen to ur advices...
sorry that i had been rude to u so many times...
all i want to say is thank u for doing all the things for me...
thank u for loving me

Mega Sales

2009-07-05T22:30:00.005+08:00

since there's mega sales in shopping centre...

i decided to go shopping before i go back to hostel...
overall...
some of the discounts are not really satisfying...
some of them are really attractive...
i think i had trained my mind to stop my hands from taking all the gourmets products back not bad this time...
i try to think and ask myself whether i need this thing for the moment??or i just wan to fulfill my shopping desire when i saw those price cut down??
then I've got a chance to pay a visit to my former company to visit my former colleagues...
everyone seems alright...
and Nicholas even got promoted...(he told me coz he want me to buy him congrats gift...such a hippo)

after shopping...i was totally exhausted...
i mean it...really really tired...
i really dun like to go shopping on Sunday...
especially go with my laptop at my back and hand carry luggage on my hand...
totally insane....isn't it??
so female get crazy when there's sales...(i mean myself only)
now having shoulder ache...

*Ps:i just ate a chicken burger as my supper...omg...if i continuing this kind of eating habit...i'm going to be really really fat...T.T

live moving on

2009-07-04T16:14:00.002+08:00

well,
my life is now moving on to another level.
i'm trying to do my best.
trying to think more,to think foward.
trying to hold my mouth before i hurt anyone and myself.
trying to be more determine in learning proses.
trying to become a BETTER person,this is what i really want.

starting a new life is not an easy task.
i need to move out my comfort condition,to the new world with risks.
i need to be tough to handle stress,which i never had it.

Orientation Week

2009-07-04T15:33:00.005+08:00

here i'm going to share my orientation week in UTM international campus.
the first day was a disaster,used up most of the time to WAIT for registration.
they claimed it was a TECHNICAL PROBLEMS.
anyway,i finished all the proses after 5 hours.
i'm in the group of fortunately because quite a number of them couldn't finish all the proseses at the and of the day.
then i arrived at my college,Kediamanan Siswa Jaya.
the college basically got 3 blocks,1 for girls and 2 for boys.
the facilities are including dobi,washing machine,cafeteria,tennis court,football court,basketball court and others...
about my roommate,ling,she is actually cousin of one of my colleagues when i was working.what a coincident ^_^

malam Kebudayaan

i actually got performed in coir with 11 girls and 1 guy...by the way the guy is really cute and talented,coz he played guitar for ur,and he has such a good voice,and very gentleman...but frus...he is younger that me la...t.t

Sport's Day

from the left(ling,me,mei yee,alice)
and last thing is i feel kinda guity coz i slept in all the speeches even i sat at first row...
i must not do that again..

BIG girl dun cry

2009-03-11T21:16:00.002+08:00

18++ already
i think i'm a big girl right now...
so i need to and have to behave like an adult...
that's why i hold my tears and told myself:"not to cry,"when i got that unpleasant result...
anyway...time will wait for no men...
all i have to do is
try my best to comfort myself...
try my best to enter local U...
try to make myself a better person...
rather than crying but doing nothing...
right??

Fragile

2009-03-06T00:37:00.002+08:00

Never thought that i'll be called "FRAGILE"....
I never feel that i'm weak like puteri lilin....
so,i was really shock and disagree with this statement...

I hate to say so...
But i'm actually fragile...
especially my mindset and determination....

选择

2009-02-13T15:56:00.003+08:00

不要以为我打算写林子祥跟叶倩文的那首“选择”
虽然明天是情人节
可是都不关我的事....
幸好晚上要做工...
不然我就要高唱梁静茹的“分手快乐”了！！！（不要怀疑！我真的这样做过...=.=)

日子过得真的很快很快....
又到了选择的日子....
选来选去...
都不知道是我在选科系，学校....
还是人家在选我的成绩...

Love Cage

2009-01-01T14:24:00.003+08:00

When love had become harmful,
it's a cage.
When the outsider trying to save her out from the cage,
the insider willing to stay in the cage,
willing to be hurt.
Is it so call love is color blind??
I know,as a outsider,that is not my business.
But i really don't get it...

My 1st day at RBox

2008-12-20T12:42:00.002+08:00

well..since the last post i was unemployed...
finally...i GOT my job...
as a waitress at Rbox ^^
there's only 2 waitress at there(included me)
so i think girls r kinda precious ^^
LOL
i really hopes that i didn't cause any troubles to my colleagues
anyway...hopes the future days will be better and better...

My day after stpm

2008-12-18T10:50:00.002+08:00

it's really confused...
when u still an unemployed...
everything falls apart...
i hope today will be a better day!
and hopefully the curse they brought back from langkawi will be solved....

i hate mpm...

2008-11-27T17:55:00.002+08:00

omg...the mm paper 2 is really really TOUGH!!!
the vector question is like something out of further maths vector...
omg...r u kidding me??
how can it be??
definitely the hardest mm paper2 ever....

虚惊一场

2008-11-22T22:12:00.003+08:00

今天早上起床后
就觉得病恹恹的
额头有些发烫
...完了...
该不会是生病了吧？？
比起感冒
我更担心是骨痛热症
不知道是不是自己想太多
一直“认住”自己生病了
所以一整天都觉得“周身不聚财”

在我疑似病了
休息了一整天后
在妈妈爱心关怀下
感觉好多了！

phew~~
没有生病真的是太好了！
希望大家身体健康！
尤其是所有的考生们
只有健康的身体
才有能力应付接下来的考试
加油加油！
^0^

等待凌晨的第一秒

2008-11-20T00:00:00.002+08:00

子夜时分
向来都是让我分外清醒的时间
思维的别纤细
异常感触良多
当然
平常我也不会不睡觉
眼光光的待到凌晨
能让我困扰到半夜
也决非什么小事
突然发觉
原来我还没有麻木
依然还会落泪
纵使是
看过无数遍的感人故事

凌晨的第一秒
明天的开始
一秒钟的时间
从昨天来到今天
从今天去到明天
在这等待凌晨的那一秒钟
我竟是犹豫的
到底该洒脱地把昨天的种种抛开
开始全新的今天
还是留恋今天所有的一切
而裹足不前

在等待凌晨的第一秒那犹豫不决的我

劫后余生

2008-11-18T20:31:00.002+08:00

呼~~
刚考完了两张paper...
感觉怪怪的
有一种历劫归来的感觉
考试的时候
竟然会有想要放弃的念头
那种感觉真得很可怕
难道
我真的是那么懦弱
稍遇挫折就想要放弃吗？
还好还好
到最后都没有放弃
加油吧！

2008-10-31T00:46:00.001+08:00

No matters what makes you down...
No matters what crushes your dreams...

How about just give it another shoot

Cold Silence

2008-10-14T14:46:00.003+08:00

Something bad was happen today
it was totally my fault
i guess
i disappointed mum very much
i tried to find excuses to make myself feel better
but i just couldn't found one
now
there's only cold silence between us
hopefully time will warm everything up and make it back to normal

Breaking Point

2008-09-26T17:36:00.004+08:00

After the trial exam...
I found out that everyone had improved a lots...
Me???
What am i doing??
What I've done??
It's shameful to said that
It's nothing...a zero
All these things freaked me out....
I'm really insecure now...
I'm used to be very "kiasu"...
What's wrong with me??
Am i don't care about my result anymore??
Why i did nothing after every times i get bad results??

Times are running out...
This time...
I want to be positive!
I really want to try.
I won't find any other excuse for me to be lazy
no matter how hard is it
no matter i might not get what i hope for even after i work hard for it
At least
I tried
I don't wanna be a loser for the rest of my life
If i can't even be determine now...
Will i be able to pursue my ambition?

Let's be motivated!!

2008-09-05T17:12:00.003+08:00

STPM is getting closer and closer....
here i am to motivate myself and my fellow friends
Fight!!my friends

together we fight
hand in hand
for a brighter future

Nice~Nice~

2008-09-05T14:12:00.001+08:00

here i am to share some of the nice interior design pic which i found recently
enjoy~~

雨后

2008-08-29T12:57:00.002+08:00

我
喜欢下雨
因为下雨时
世界会变得迷蒙
尖锐的真相
也会暂时消失
这有点自欺欺人吧
以为那短暂的消失
能让自己忘了那尖锐
让自己好过一点

下雨时
淅沥沥的雨声
仿佛代替我哭
仿佛代替我发泄出所有的负面情绪
它替我用力的地
拍打着树枝
拍打着屋檐
拍打着地面
拍打着世界
甚至是这拍打醒我自己

可是
我终究还是忘了
雨后
这一切的一切
都会变回原状
事情还是得面对
那
就勇敢一点吧

双重标准

2008-08-15T13:38:00.003+08:00

人
往往都会不自觉地有双重标准
不管有多无私
它难免发生

人
对不同的人作相同的事
都会有不同的观点
这俗称“大小眼”

我
承认我也有“大小眼”的时候

你
可曾“大小眼”过？

怒火燃烧中

2008-08-15T13:23:00.003+08:00

世界上
就是有一种人
他
信口雌黄
不知悔改
狗嘴里吐不出象牙
以为别人的宽恕就是软弱的表现
以为别人不反击就是怕了他而沾沾自喜
殊不知
别人只是不屑和他一般见识罢了

像这样的人
活该被讨厌
活该被鄙视
因为这一切的一切
都是他自己罪有应得

像这样的人
以后会变得怎样？
变本加厉？
还是洗心革面？...应该不太可能...江山易改本性难移

至于他会不会有反省的那一天
我想大概要等到世界末日的那一天
关于这件事
我真的不在乎
我只知道
此时此刻
身为受害者的我
~愤怒~
~想用白眼瞪死他~
~想用力诅咒他~
~想看他自食其果的悲惨落魄样~

总之
就是
~愤怒ing~

解密：“功夫熊猫”的父亲为什么是只鸭子？

2008-08-07T20:36:00.003+08:00

i get from a china website....i think the writer might be a little bit over imagine....lol
enjoy~~

难道梦工场真得已经将想象力发挥到了极致？将鸭子当作了熊猫的生父？

非也！在影片中其实已经有所暗示，鸭子期盼熊猫能够梦见面条的，但终究不是，他梦见的是功夫，这是冥冥之中的。

熊猫为什么会梦见功夫？原因只有一个，那就是熊猫在身体里本身就蕴涵着深厚的功夫基因，他的身体里不可能是汤汁。

因为他根本就不是鸭子的亲生儿子。

那么熊猫真正身世是怎样的？

猜测：熊猫来自武学世家，其父亲也是绝顶高手，熊猫在婴儿时和大龙(太狼)一样，也是被遗弃的，有所不同的是，大龙遗弃在了功夫高手(浣熊)的门口，而熊猫被遗弃在了面条高手(鸭子)的门口。大龙与浣熊以师徒相称，而熊猫与鸭子直接以父子相称了。大龙成为了功夫高手，熊猫也做得一手好面条。这再次验证了，　牛逼人在什么领域都会牛逼，有点扯远了。

我们再来看看他们两人与龙之秘籍的宿命。

还是猜测：大龙与熊猫本是同门兄弟的后代，他们父辈共同保守着龙之秘籍的秘密。　

那他们为什么要遗弃自己的孩子呢？他们去哪了？死了？这样的高手又是怎么死的呢？

且看！乌龟的身份其实倒十分可疑，这个乌龟从何而来，何以成为了举世无双的超级大师？要知道，在中国的江湖上是不可能独门一派的，如果说真的天下一家了，那原因只有一个，那就是这个高手独霸了一本超级秘籍——就是那本龙之秘籍。

乌龟自己在太极仙境偷偷练的既是这本，如此看来，龙嘴里那本空白打印纸只能是假的！　

那么只有一种可能，就是乌龟杀死了大龙与熊猫的亲生父亲！

看官且合上嘴，为什么要杀？

继续猜测：乌龟与熊猫和大龙的亲生父亲本是习武的同门，是他们三人共同发现(或他们的师傅所传)了龙之秘籍，三人约定(或师傅临终所托)一同修炼。但乌龟的生理特点决定了他是比较阴险的(会缩头)，一念之间起了私心，想独自成为天下最高的高手，于是起念残忍地杀害了两个同门兄弟。　

无奈，两个同门兄弟有后，而乌龟寿命过长，青春期来得很晚，所以无后，这才有了后面的故事。。。

至于是谁将两位大侠的遗孤熊猫、大龙托付在鸭子和浣熊门口的呢？一定另有神秘人士，我想这个角色很可能将在续集里成为一个重要的线索，并重演当初催人泪下的托孤大戏(如果梦工场打算拍续集的话)。

现在暂且不论此人是谁。

单说他的当初的抉择：明明知道浣熊师傅与乌龟大师的密切关系，而冒险将大龙放在浣熊门口，此为一招险棋。好有一比，就是将钥匙放在了小偷的身边。乌龟肯定是知道大龙身世的。说到这里，一定会有人觉得不合逻辑，趁早杀了大龙启不是一了百了？何必养虎为患呢？

各位看官，我们此时要站在一个绝世高手的角度来看待这个问题：前面说到，龙嘴里的秘籍是假的，那真的一定被乌龟练熟以后藏匿起来了，所以他只要做一件事，就是阻止大龙得到秘籍。试想，一个人在世界上已经遍无对手，那心境必已不同常人，况且片中交代，浣熊对大龙宠爱有加，虽然以乌龟的武功杀大龙与杀只小猫无异，但为了维护他本人在江湖中的形象也不好下手，毕竟浣熊也是聪明人，乌龟为此弄得身败名裂也不值当。

其实说到底，乌龟认为，只要没有人能够得到真的秘籍，便再无人能够撼动他的霸龟地位！

回过头再来看看我们的主角，熊猫同学，他的童年显得无比草根，根本不值得一提，无奈他从小便痴迷功夫，并戏剧性地在一场乌龟策划的超级选秀中意外胜出，成为了龙的传人(不知成龙做何感想)

此时，老谋深算的乌龟大师的阴谋再次浮出水面，他当然也清楚熊猫的身世，也清楚熊猫根本不会什么功夫，但他也知道熊猫一定有着深厚的习武天赋，当他的手指向这只肥嘟嘟的熊猫时，一场本应一起联合为父报仇的兄弟之间的决斗将被乌龟导演。。。　

冷汗呀，冷汗！忍了20年的老乌龟终于等到了这一刻，而且竟然是一箭双雕的妙招，为什么说是一箭双雕？对，还有那个慈悲为怀的人民教师—— 小浣熊干吃面！乌龟口口声声的老朋友，其实早已经成了乌龟的眼中钉。因为是他一手在乌龟的眼皮下面将大龙训练成为一个高手，虽然这并不能够成为乌龟的对手，但足已成为隐患。

所以他不仅仅策划了大龙与阿宝之间的生死对决，还希望看到一场师徒PK，至于谁死谁活，乌龟并不关心，还是那句话，只要真正的秘籍还在自己手中，谁赢都是他赢，谁输他都不输。

当然，乌龟此刻还有另外一种考虑，在这次争斗的人中，大龙依然是最有实力的，即便浣熊掌握着更多的必杀技能，但浣熊心软，那毕竟是自己曾经的爱徒，与亲子无异，二十年前不忍杀大龙，二十年后也必不忍杀。再看大龙，虽然在山顶师徒见面的时候，大龙曾想转身去找“飞龙大侠”决斗，无奈师傅再次激怒大龙与之对决，大龙不得不战；虽然在浣熊在弥留之际深情地对大龙说了“对不起”，一度使大龙恻隐，但大龙已一心想得到龙之秘籍，到了人挡杀人，佛挡杀佛的地步。所以　“干吃面”定是凶多吉少。

所以，在乌龟看来，这场借刀杀人的大戏上演之后，最可能留下的还是大龙，实力与情感的纠葛导致了乌龟料想中的这个结果。那留下大龙，乌龟又有什么打算？各位看官，如果没有贼，警察还有什么用？保持自己在江湖中的绝对威望除了要有无人能敌的绝世武功外，还需要一个打不死，起不来的“悍匪”！只要和平谷的和平一日还受到大龙的威胁，老乌龟的江湖地位就一日不会被世人所遗忘。这也是二十年来，老乌龟对大龙囚而不杀的根本所在。

废了这么多的口舌，其实里面有一个始终无法逾越的悖论，那就是如果乌龟归西，这些局又是设给谁看的呢？

政治是凶残的，有时候比战争更加残酷。

因此答案只有一个：乌龟未死！他在关键时刻抽身离去，完全是阴谋使然，就是要把这个局留给这些局中人去厮杀。乌龟若不离去，他如何又能不伸出援手战大龙呢？

可惜，人算不如天算，熊猫凭借一身肥肉和天生的功夫悟性，竟然没有被大龙所杀，反而占据上风，大家在看到类似氢弹爆炸的一道光之后，以为大龙被熊猫杀了，也且先慢下结论吧。

看官，您听累了，我也说累了，但在真正的谜底出现之前，这里还有一位关键人物未做描述，这个人就是当年的托孤之人。确切地说，是当年的托孤之鸭！没错！二十年来真正在幕后与老乌龟暗战的，居然就是这位，也只能是这位！面条大王，世外高人：面条鸭王或面条王鸭！

再次收回您的舌头，且听我的吐血大结局！

当年托孤之时，鸭子还是只年轻的鸭子，亦是一位高手，但确是面条高手，恐怕和功夫不着边际，也可能不知道什么秘籍的秘密，这也是他当初他没有进入老龟视线，从而逃过魔掌的原因，不论。但托孤之后，他便知道了秘籍以及老龟的大秘密，无奈自己不懂武功也无力与乌龟对抗，只能处心积虑地照看他们的孩子，希望终有一日能够为大侠们报仇雪恨。

经过一袋烟的思考，鸭子终于走出前述的那步险棋，冒险将大龙送入龟口，就此一搏。另将熊猫自己抚养，教其面条绝技，不为其他，只为糊口，也不枉大侠托孤，即便不能报仇也要为大侠留得一后。

当然，更伟大的不仅如此，还记得被乌龟谴去大牢视察的那只鸭子吗？那才是真正的面条鸭王的嫡子！在将大龙送入太极顶的同时，鸭子竟将自己的亲身骨肉当成卧底，时刻监视太极顶老龟的举动，为什么？责任！托孤之责重于天那，终究有机会还是要为大侠报仇的！眼睛模糊了吗？这是什么？这就是中国传统文化中的大仁、大爱！

看官，擦干眼泪继续听我道来。

二十年，平凡，也不平凡。这二十年来鸭子无时无刻不在担心太极顶上大龙的安危，当然还有那自己的亲生骨肉。但，这个机会终于还是来了。

老乌龟呀老乌龟，机关算尽太聪明，老乌龟真的能算出大龙会杀回来吗？错！消停了二十年了，这个事情乌龟已经不能再等了，借刀杀人关键在刀！他迫不及待地要策划这场世纪大战。这里要说的是，经过多年的卧底，小鸭子早已成了乌龟的心腹之人，乌龟谴使小鸭子去牢里视察显得多么可疑，没错，还记得那片飘落的羽毛吗？那羽毛绝非意外，老乌龟很清楚，这一小片羽毛就足已让大龙逃出大牢，回来复仇。

当然，这样的安排，小鸭子之前就已经告诉老鸭子了，鸭王也终于等到了这一天。不破不立，机会从来出乱世。是时候让这不明身世的两兄弟见面了。各位看客，凭熊猫那几天的修炼就可能打败大龙吗？假象！想想大龙为什么不杀五侠、为什么不杀师傅？因为登上太极顶的时候，大龙已经知道了一切！鸭子向他诉说了整个原委，这一切都只是做给缩头乌龟的一场戏而已……

Snakiss action again 07 August 2008 Bkt Melawati

2008-08-07T20:21:00.003+08:00

行动力和思考能力之间的较力赛

2008-08-03T18:57:00.002+08:00

最近
毅然发觉到
这个逐渐严重的问题

常常发现
自己因为一时冲动而犯下了一对错误
说错话
买肯本没用的东西
诸如此类的小事
真让人生气
气自己
气自己的脑袋
管不住躯体
气那种无能为力的感觉
气自己老是乱花“冤枉钱”

是神经线太长吗？
还是我根本习惯不带脑袋出门
久没用了
等到需要用到时
它难免会失灵

希望在这场较力赛里
行动力不会再是赢家

请还我空气

2008-08-02T00:11:00.003+08:00

最近，空气污染指数又升高了．
我能体谅这是农民辛勤垦种后，必经的过程．
所以没有人可以骂．．．我好像真得很喜欢骂人．．．
真的好惨哦！
虽然没有像前几天那样，到处都有烟，一片迷蒙
可是空气里还是有“烟烟”的味道
熏得我
喉咙好干
眼睛好酸
鼻子有点塞，导致嗅觉有点失灵
拜托
快把纯净的空气还给我吧！
快窒息了！
Ｔ．Ｔ

Action again without "3"

2008-07-26T00:50:00.004+08:00

Another nice trip for our group

Bagan Nakhota Omar

2008-07-20T14:13:00.003+08:00

A seashore journey in green
jump as high as u can...
coz we feel free and refreshing in this green enviroment

Blue sky...
the place we hope we can fly to...

We hope we can always enjoy and appreciate what we have...
hope u think like us too

Sometimes...we'll feel upset...

we'll emo....

but the luckiest thing is...
we have friends
which we can share our ups and downs

and cheer each other up

our friendship
is definitely something that
i'll remember
forever

every moments of joy

sorrow

confused

depressed

loneliness

离开地球表面

2008-07-15T17:44:00.002+08:00

有时
幻想
如果我能离开地球表面
哪怕只有几秒

当我再回到地球表面时
一切是否会变得不一样？

逃避终究不是办法
而我
连逃避不能
因为
我
已
也无处可逃

无数的叹息

2008-07-15T17:40:00.001+08:00

对于自己的恒心，毅力
只有一阵阵的叹息
使我没有坚持下去的天分吗？
难道就连坚持下去也需要天分吗？

超可爱的便当

2008-07-14T23:18:00.002+08:00

不能深爱，不如不爱。

2008-07-11T17:43:00.003+08:00

逐爱
就像走进一座深不见底的迷宫
如果你没有那孤注一掷的心
就别走进去
因为你那个不坚定的心会让你在旅途中进退两难
宁愿你当个爱情的逃兵
在迷宫外
凝望爱情的瑰丽
也不愿看到你走在迷宫深处时
因为摇摆不定的心
而
迷失方向
进退两难
时
打着“我不会爱”的名号
戴着“深情”的面具
奢望得到爱的宽恕
赦免你犯下的错

如果你不能一心一意的爱着那个人
就不要轻言说爱

不能深爱，不如不爱。

连续缺课两天的忏悔

2008-07-11T09:42:00.003+08:00

唉~ =3
我该说这是命运的作弄？
还是人为的疏忽呢？
明明都已经醒了，为什么还要继续赖床呢？
这种能拖就拖的行为征得很令人生气！！！
我，总是这样。
能拖就拖。
时间，机会，就这样被拖走了。
从下个星期开始，我一定要竭我所能，全力抵抗贪睡这个恶习~~ (>.<)

self reflecting

2008-07-02T15:50:00.003+08:00

have u ever defeated by someone u think u r better than him???
i'm a bit disappointed...a bit upset...self reflecting....

FREEZING~~

2008-07-02T15:46:00.002+08:00

1.有一只企鹅，他的家离北极熊家特别远，要是靠走的话，得走20年才能到。有一天，企鹅在家里呆着特别无聊，准备去找北极熊玩，与是他出门了，可是走到路的一半的时候发现自己忘记锁门了，这就已经走了10年了，可是门还是得锁啊，于是企鹅又走回家去锁门。锁了门以后，企鹅再次出发去找北极熊，等于他花了40年才到了北极熊他们家……然后企鹅就敲门说：“北极熊北极熊，企鹅找你玩来了！”　结果北极熊开门以后你猜他说什么？……“还是去你家玩吧~”

2.小白兔蹦蹦跳跳到面包房，问：“老板，你们有没有一百个小面包啊？”老板：“啊，真抱歉，没有那么多”“这样啊。。。”小白兔垂头丧气地走了。第二天，小白兔蹦蹦跳跳到面包房，“老板，有没有一百个小面包啊？”老板：“对不起，还是没有啊”“这样啊。。。”小白兔又垂头丧气地走了。第三天，小白兔蹦蹦跳跳到面包房，“老板，有没有一百个小面包啊？”老板高兴的说：“有了，有了，今天我们有一百个小面包了！！”小白兔掏出钱：“太好了，我买两个！”

3.小明说：“阿康，问你‘有一只鲨鱼吃下了一颗绿豆，结果它变成了什么’？”　

阿康说：“我不知道，答案是什么？”

小明说：“嘿！嘿！答案是“绿豆沙(绿豆鲨)“，你很笨喔！”

4.老师问一同学怎么减少白色污染？同学答：把饭盒做成蓝色　

5.有个人，他肠胃不好。一天，他来到胃病医院看病，对医生说：“我吃什么拉什么，吃西瓜拉西瓜，吃黄瓜拉黄瓜！”医生想了想，对他说：“我看你只有吃屎了！”

6.飞机上，一位空中小姐问一个小女孩说：“为什么飞机飞这么高都不会撞到星星呢？”小女孩回答到：“我知道，因为星星会’闪’啊！”

7.有一只北极熊和一只企鹅在一起耍，企鹅把身上的毛一根一根地拔了下来，拔完之后，对北极熊说：“好冷哦！”北极熊听了，也把自己身上的毛一根一根地拔了下来，转头对企鹅说：“果然很冷！”

8.有一个面包，走着走着肚子饿了，于是就把自己吃了　

9.Q：非洲食人族的酋长吃什么？

A：人啊！

Q：那有一天，酋长病了，医生告诉他要吃素，那他吃什么？

A：吃植物人！~~

10.美国人∶你看过木头做的杯子吗？

中国人∶没有！

美国人∶那为什麽你们中国字的“杯“是木字旁？

中国人∶“杯“字旁边不是有个“不“字吗！也就是说它不是木头做的。

11.小白+小白=？

小白兔(TWO)～

12.Q：胖子从12楼掉下来会变什么？A：死胖子

13.阿松和阿柏无事闲聊互道岁月不饶人。

阿松：“回忆儿童时代，过的最快乐的是儿童节。”

阿柏：“过了十年就是青年节。”

阿松：“再过十年就是父亲节。”

阿柏：“再过几十年就是老人节了。”

阿松：“又再过几十年。”

阿柏：“清明节。”

14.百万富翁开着豪华的加长“林肯“轿车经过一个村落时，看见路旁有两个乞丐正在拔草吃，百万富翁随即停下车。

“你们为什么吃草？”

“我们实在是没有钱。。。。。。”一个乞丐答道。

“真是的，上车吧，到我家去。”

“我家里还有老婆和两个孩子。。。。。。”一个乞丐嘟囔道。

“把他们叫来”富翁指了指另一个乞丐。“还有你，把你的家属也叫来。

”

“我家人口可多，除了老婆外，还有五个孩子。”另一个乞丐说道。

“没关系，都叫来，快去~~”

就这样，两个乞丐和他们的家属都上了车，好在是加长车。行使途中，一个乞丐的老婆感激的说道：“老板，您人真好，连我们这样的贫穷的人您都能请到家。”

百万富翁答道：“没什么，我刚刚从国外回来，家宅一直没人照看，院子里的草坪可能有一米多高了，你们可以吃个够”

15.某日国战如火如荼，公会团长为了激励士气来到了大草原前线……公会团长问：情况怎样？团员弓箭手报告说：报告团长！前方20公尺的帐棚旁有一个拜索斯的弓箭手，不过他的准度很烂，这几天射了好多次，都没有射到人。团长听完便问：“既然发现敌国的弓箭手，为什么不把他干掉？”团员弓箭手说：报告团长！不好吧，难道你要让他们换一个比较准的吗？　

16.众士兵：“渴……渴……”曹操：“大家再坚持一会！我曾经到过这个地方，记得附近有一座梅林，再走一会可能就到了”众士兵：“噢~~~~有梅子吃呀~~~噢~~~”半个时辰后——曹仁：“主公！探险队找到了大量的水源！”曹操：“哈哈哈哈，大家听到了吗？终于有水喝啦”众士兵：“不去……一定要找到梅子……”

17.　某女校闹鬼。有天被小红遇上了。鬼说：学妹。。。你看。。。我没有脚。。。我没有脚。。。小红：那有什么。学姐你看，我没有胸部，我没有胸部。　

18.一块三分熟的牛排和一块5分熟的牛排在大街上遇到了，为什么他们没打招呼呢？？(假设他们会说话)因为。。因为。。。。。因为他们都不熟啊~~！哈哈

20.小蛇很慌张地问大蛇哥哥。。“哥哥，我们有没有毒？？“大蛇说：“你问这干吗？“小蛇说：“我刚才不小心把自己舌头咬到了。“　

22.龟兔赛跑。。。兔子很快跑到前面去了。。乌龟看到一只蜗牛爬得很慢很慢。。对他说：你上来，我背你吧。。　

然后。。蜗牛就上来了。。过了一会。。乌龟又看到一只蚂蚁。。对他说：你也上来吧。。于是蚂蚁也上来了。。蚂蚁上来以后。。看到上面的蜗牛。。对他说了句“你好”你们知道蜗牛说什么吗？蜗牛说：你抓紧点，这乌龟好快。。。

26.每次看你穿丝袜的时候……我的心中都会有一种无法言喻的感觉，　

那就是……萝卜还包保鲜膜咧！　

27.有一天有个婆婆坐车，坐到中途婆婆不认识路了，婆婆用棍子打司机屁股说：这是哪？司机：这是我的屁股。　

28.甲：“我带你去一个全部女生都没有穿胸罩的地方。”

乙：“真的吗？在哪里？快带我去！”

甲：“就在隔壁的幼儿园！”

29.有一天，老师带一群小朋友到山上采水果，他宣布说：“小朋友，采完水果后，我们统一一起洗，洗完可以一起吃。”所有小朋友都跑去采水果了。集合时间一到，所有小朋友都集合了。

老师：“小华，你采到什么？”

小华：“我在洗苹果，因为我采到苹果。”

老师：“小美你呢？”

小美：“我在洗蕃茄，因为我采到蕃茄。”

老师：“小朋友都很棒哦！那阿明你呢？”

阿明：“我在洗布鞋，因为我踩到大便。”

30.坏消息：一个飞行员从飞机里掉出来了

好消息：他带了降落伞

坏消息：降落伞是坏的

好消息：下面有个干草堆

坏消息：干草堆上有一杆大粪叉

好消息：他没落到大粪叉上

坏消息：他也没落到干草堆上

35.一猴子吃花生前都要先塞进屁股再拿出来吃。对此管理员解释道：曾有人喂它桃子，结果桃核拉不出来，猴子吓怕了，现在一定要量好再吃。

40.一天深夜，一个年轻女子经过一家精神病院时，突然后面传来“哇”的一声。女子扭头一看，一个一丝不挂的男子正在向她追来。女子吓得拔腿就跑，后面的男人紧追不舍。不好，前面是一条死胡同，女子万念俱灰，跪在地上哭着哀求道：“你愿意干什么就干什么吧，只求你不要杀我。”男子狡黠地笑了笑说：“真的？那现在你开始追我。”

41.某精神病院新来护士一名，此女初来乍到，见院中有一病人围着一口古井打转，口中念着：“13，13，……“小护士心中颇为奇怪，想不出这个“13“是何含义，连续观察几日，均是如此。她总想上前问个究竟，但害怕病人发作，始终不敢。一日，小护士终于安捺不住好奇心，慢慢的走到那个病人身边，探头向井中观望。突然那个病人抱住护士的双腿，往下一掀，开始念：“14，14，14，……”

42.火柴棍突然觉得头很痒，就伸手挠，挠着挠着就把自己烧死了。。

Taman Alam

2008-06-30T18:04:00.006+08:00

Last Wednesday...we visited to Taman Alam which located in Kuala Selangor...

the view is really nice

sapphire,wynn and me

sienz....why vchin blocked me...diet la....

joyful moment

POSING EXPERT

nice??

look,how happy we are....

the spooky and mysterious side of taman alam

re-new ic

2008-06-30T16:32:00.005+08:00

2 weeks ago,me and my friends went to the nearest Jabatan Pendaftaran Negara to renew our ic...

this is the number i get

girls

finally finish...here are we posing on the elevator ^_^

at the lobby...

nice flower huh...

after that...we go to a nice restaurant called

the restaurant is well decorated...

this is the cheese chichen chop that i ordered....it's delicious...yummy yummy

wynn and me

Did u ever did these??

2008-06-21T15:48:00.003+08:00

so did u ever did these???me??
ok...of course i did...when i was a little girl...
u know...child always feel curious about everything around...LOL
actually i decided to blog this weeks ago...
...then...procrastinated AGAIN....
i wonder...when i finally can be free from procrastination....
anyway i this actually remind me about my childhood...
childhood is definitely something that u couldn't buy it...
as a kid...all u need to o is just
laugh as laugh as u can
cry as hard as u can
no responsible
no boundary
what a wonderful life time...
what a wonderful memory...

Bukit Melawati

2008-06-18T22:27:00.006+08:00

....pretending??

lonely monkey

mummy and baby

incredible tails

know where r we?

look at those details....it's brilliant~

look at its face~~

museum

me and my dad (part 2)

2008-06-15T16:47:00.003+08:00

father's day is around the corner...
so...
here am i talking and complaining about my dad AGAIN....
dad,sorry ya~
i'm really not meant to do so~LOL

this was actually an incident happened between my dad and i yesterday...
and here is the story...

it was about 7 in the evening...
i was preparing dinner...
then he passed by...and sticked his foot in kitchen...
"hey...what u preparing for dinner?"
"=.=lll....just like usual..."
his face told me that he really hope to say something...
but he had nothing...
then he started looking here and there...
"i think the oil in the frying pan is not really enough..."
"i think is enough."
"enough meh??"
then he decided to add some more oil...
and tried to adjust the frying pan to an angle with the oil can be able to cover the fish...
i saw...=.=lll
really speechless...
"really not enough la..."he said by his own...
"...."i speechless...and decided to let him do whatever he want...
i thought he'll satisfied and go back to living room...
but he walk to me and ask,
"what kind of vegetable u choose to cook for dinner?"
"cabbage..."
"how u cook it?"
"..."
maybe i'm used to not be a patient being...
or my dad really disturbing....
then he kept asking a few more questions...
....=.=lll
really cant stand anymore...
"dad...would u mind to shut up or go out?if u still wanna stay here...then i go...u're too disturbing...no wonder mum always get mad when u disturb her while she is cooking..."
"..."
then he go out with a sense of humor...
i beg my mum do the same thing too...
coz my dad really disturbing...and annoying...
like a "housefly"

haha...lol
if my dad see this...
will he kill me??
anyway...happy father's day!
love u~

*tell u a secret...i did break a dish yesterday...after my dad go out...T.T i kept all the pieces secretly and i'll throw it away tomorrow...shh...dun tell my mum...^_^

what happen after exam?

2008-06-11T13:58:00.003+08:00

after the exam papers were delivered
some of my classmates were begging marks from teacher.
i tried my best to pretend i don't care...
but the truth is i do care about my marks...
but what can i do....
i won't pass my physics even i beg for it...
because...
it is way too hard to beg 10++ marks...
frankly....
i a bit jealous...
jealous tho others who passed...
=.=

"i was careless during the exam...if not i sure can get higher marks"said by a fatty in my class...
shit la...
careless is one of the risks in exam...
people try their best to check their answer again and again to prevent carelessness
if u careless...u need to deal with it...and try to reduce it...
but now sitting there and yelling that u "just" careless...

finally i discovered that...
we can see various type of people's "heng" when or after exam...

what goes around comes around

2008-06-09T14:51:00.004+08:00

"u r the 1st runner up",this is what my physics teacher told me this morning...
this "second" is not the normal one...
but...counting from the lowest marks...
what a pathetic...
i'm frustrated...
i can't believe i did it...
after divided with the total marks...
i only get 22 out of 100...
damned it.
this means i get 0...
this means i need to use the others 3 subjects' marks to divided by 4...
this means failure...
it's really hard for me....to be a loser...

then...chemistry teacher came in...
i just pass my chemistry....with 38...
after i checked the paper...i knew my chemistry teacher already try her best to help me...
what goes around comes around...
if this is my karma...
i have to take it...and deal with it...

about those who cheating during exam(if got)...
i hope them do badly in the real stpm as their karma...
am i evil??
i dun think so...
coz i think it's really unfair for the rest...
while those ppl can get high marks without studying and pretend they very "geng"

i know marks are not the purpose of study...
but marks are undeniable for u to know how much knowledge u have(except those who cheating)
and we need marks to full fill our dreams...prides...and glories...
i hate to become a loser...
i always hope that i can be knowledgeable without working hard...
i always hope that i'll be able to memorize and apply every formulas and definitions in maths,physics and chemistry after i wake up from my bed...
these are just day dreams...
the truth is one will never be successful if he or she didn't work hard...
there are no "free lunch" in the world...
u definitely need to sacrifice something to get something u want...
this is the rule...

am i ready to sacrifice my time to study for better reputation?
even myself have no idea...
let's see...

refreshing trip

2008-06-08T16:12:00.005+08:00

juz wake up from my cozy bed...
e???
my chocolate is in my hug...
and also my blanket...
o....
i'm at home right now...
not in pulau pangkor....
oh ya....
the 3 days 2 nights trip edi end....
so fast....unbelievable fast....
anyway...it's really a wonderful trip...
and it'll be in my mind always...

Dad and me

2008-06-01T23:57:00.002+08:00

My dad really likes to complain...
he can complain everything....
form the way my mum cuts vegetables...to television commercials....
omg....will it because of his is Virgo???
the television commercials he complained most are probably....the "silky girl cosmetic",where there was an "uncle" kept taken pictures for a girl....
and the "bird nest" that one....i dun really remember the brand...but the commercial
is talking about a girl who lose contact with her family found her mom and discover that her mom looks exactly young as herself....
my dad thinks that these tv commercials are ridiculous...and complain to mom and i every time he saw them...
today...he complained AGAIN....
haha~~
today he complained about the tv commercial of a potato chips...i dun really remember the brand...the act is about a bunch of peoples willing to jump into the river to get a bit of the chips...
then...he complained again after a few minutes about a politician...because the politician kept repeating his answers during the interview with reporter...
see???
my dad really likes to complain....right??
so...as his daughter...
i think i did own the "complain" genetic as well....
see??
i complaining my dad at here now...
^_^ ^_^

meaningless

2008-05-29T16:15:00.003+08:00

i used to be a lazy bone.....
i think i am the type of people which have a lot of thoughts in head...
but never do anything to make them come true....
sometimes...
i will feel deeply regret and awful....
the next minute...
u will see me stick in front of laptop...
like nothing happen before at all...

so i said i am not that kind of person who will commit suicide...
even i am not the best in all the area...
i won't feel that depress...
maybe just crying or throwing things...
then i will be fine...
i know i should be cherish and appreciate what i have in my live...
since i didn't sacrifice or work damn hard for my life ever...
i have no reasons to claim that "unfair"

i know this is meaningless....
but days are so boring...
have no heart to study...so just write something....

frustration

2008-05-23T15:30:00.002+08:00

i feel deeply disappointed to myself....
i already tired of listening myself regret again and again...
since when i lose all my concentration for my studies?
or...perhaps i never give all out...
i really dun wan to think about how terrible i had done in physics paper...
i think even a form 5 student can do the paper better than i ever did....
what a idiot am i...
can even control myself...even a little determination...
if i continue be like this...
will i have the strength to pursue my dream?

bla bla bla

2008-05-19T12:35:00.002+08:00

life...it wont be exactly what u hope for...along the way of life...frustration and uncertainty will always block your way...

chance...will only approach to u once...it wont wait for u to decide...when u realized....it already gone....

live...just once...never have take two...so one should never regret about the choices he or she made....

time...will wait for no man...the time that u waste will never ever come back...don't ever believe the electronic kitten and the time machine....

fly me to the moon

2008-05-15T17:35:00.005+08:00

Fly me to the moon
And let me play among the stars
Let me see what spring is like
On Jupiter and Mars
In other words hold my hand
In other words darling kiss me

Fill my life with song
And let me sing forevermore
You are all I hope for
All I worship and adore
In other words please be true
In other words I love you

In other words please be true
In other words I love you

this is the song i currently in love of....a relaxing song
the lyrics is very romantic as well.....
do u feel in love edi???

about my dream

2008-05-12T14:43:00.002+08:00

my ambition is to become an interior designer....
when i told my friend about it....they all seem so shock....
they know i like act....but they thought i already give it up...because i already in form 6...science stream...they think if i want to become an interior designer...why i continue my study in form 6 science stream...but not straight go to study in private college???
frankly....i think it's all because of i was not determine enough at that moment......
and i also questioning myself....is that want i want for the rest of life??
i confused....
so i choose to continue my study in form 6 science stream....because i need sometimes to figure out what i want....
finally....i found it....but then the questions are all coming to my face....
as you all know....dream is dream....reality will not be exactly the same about what you dream of....
if i decide to study interior design...i sure gonna be suffer for the first or even second or third year...does it worth???
to start everything from the beginning...when everyone is way far ahead from u....just to pursue a dream that even yourself have no idea whether it gonna success or not.... i really dunno whether i can take that....if everything in my world falls all apart....
so i really need to do a lot of research about it...whether am i suitable for study in interior design....
well....i won't find out what will it be if i dun try...to pursue my dream...i willing to take the risk...
about form 6....i won't think that it is the worst decision i ever made....
because i believe that everyone has his own faith....
if i didn't study in form 6...i won't understand that time and tile wait for no men....i won't be able to have such a great time together with my fellow friends...and i won't figure out i really dun like science....
for friends who love and care about me...i really really appreciate you all....

what i need to do now is to do whatever i can to get the best stpm result.....
because without it....dream is just a bubble....

a trip to parliament,museum negara

2008-05-06T21:48:00.006+08:00

enjoy~~

funny test paper.....^_^

2008-05-06T11:30:00.004+08:00

dream home

2008-04-29T22:23:00.021+08:00

purple....
mysterious....
juz cant stop failing in love for it.....
really a nice design....
hope i can be a great interior designer ^_^

笑话大全

2008-04-29T21:54:00.003+08:00

1、猫因生活所迫，在狐狸开的夜来香发廊坐台。一日，老鼠来到发廊点名要包夜，猫誓死不从。老鼠大怒道：当初追老子，追得死去活来，现在送上门，还假正经！

2、生物课上，老师问：如何才能正确分辨章鱼的手和脚？学生答：放个屁给它闻，会捂住鼻子的就是手，其他的就是脚。全班皆倒。

3、一人上班老是放响屁，同事忍不住说：你能不能不出声？然后便见他坐在那抖个不停。同事问他在干什么，他答：我现在已经调成振动啦！

4、鲤鱼和乌龟去领结婚证。办事员问乌龟年龄，乌龟说：100。办事员遗憾地说：对不起，按照你们家族规定，你还未成年，不准结婚。

5、某人骑车，听见一个路人在狂吼：go，go，go……心想，我也会唱：奥来奥来哦……话音未落，一头栽进沟里。路人骂道：告诉你沟沟沟，你还骑？!摔死活该！

6、自然课老师问：“为什么人死后身体是冷的？”没人回答。老师又问：“没人知道吗？”这时，教室后面有人说：“那是因为心静自然凉。”

7、蜘蛛深爱着蚂蚁，表达爱意时却遭到拒绝，蜘蛛大吼：“为什么？这一切是为什么？”蚂蚁胆怯地说：“妈妈说了，成天在网上呆着的都不是好人！”

8、小光是一位勤奋好学的学生，他利用寒假兼职赚取学费。白天帮肉贩割肉，晚上则到医院实习。某晚，有位老妇因急诊，要施行手术，由小光推她进手术室。老妇惊慌失色地狂喊：“天啊！你是那个杀猪的，你要把我推到哪啊！

9、一人初上飞机想吐，空姐取一空袋，快满时又去取袋，并嘱咐“别乱吐”。待回来时见遍地都是，问其因，答道：“我见快满了，又喝了一口，周围人就都吐了……”

Enjoy~

rest to nap

2008-04-25T18:29:00.003+08:00

god....i late for tuition yesterday AGAIN....
i really shocked when i opened my eye and see the time....
then i straight get up from bed....when i was combing my hair....
cellphone was ringing and vibrating....it's Jessica Simpson
oh my god....friend was calling....that's means that i really late....
and Mr.Liu must be asking where am i......
after take the call....
i keep on rushing to tuition center.....
what a disaster....T.T
finally...i entered the class....
then Mr.Liu saw me....he just asking my opinion whether need to change the tuition time as i always late....i have no idea whether he do that for kindly wanna help me or do that purposely to set me down....
well....actually i dun meant to take a nap before tuition....
after having my lunch....i just simply lay on bed....relax a while...listen to the music....
who knows....i fell asleep....after i listened about half of the song.....
which means i fell asleep in just 2 minutes....
am i that tired???
i still remember....it's Alicia Keys ....
so sad....so shameful....at the end of the day....

Gossip Girl

2008-04-24T20:48:00.005+08:00

recently....i'm crazy about
ya ya ya....i used to like this kinda style series.....
a little bit dirty....fashionable....glamorous....hot heroines....cute heroes.....
stories about teenagers....

plus....the background music of the series is also my taste....
as conclusion... i really stick on it....
actually....i'm not only watched the series....i also watch the novel....coz is original from the same title novel by Cecily von Ziegesar....
juz read a few pages... my English level really poor for me to read such English novel....T.T
kinda disappointed to myself....

since i've read a lots of touching stories....i hope to write my own as well...after think for some time...i finally have some ideas...
cant wait to write it out....but i kinda worried that what i'll be able to write out wont be exactly the same like what i had think before...

healthy and me

2008-04-22T22:17:00.005+08:00

最近，身边很多朋友，包括自己，都生病了.....
生病，真的好惨哦！
每天都昏昏沉沉的.....
做什么事都听不太起劲.....

不知道是不是因为生病，情绪特别容易崩溃。
只是坐着说话,也可以搞到眼眶犯红。
超级情绪化的！

可能是平时压抑太久了吧！
所以在生病这个脆弱的时候，特别的感触。

幸好现在已经康复了，身体健康，不用有事没事躺在那里.....
健康的感觉真好.....

how engineer analysed women

2008-04-08T15:32:00.008+08:00

are women really this worse???
haha....
but these analysis really humor....

totally embasrasing day

2008-03-31T17:26:00.004+08:00

T.T
really embarrassed.....
feel embarrass to tell it....
just look at the picture....
sure can understand....
i never thought my body coordination could be this worse....
pai sei.....
just hoping everyone will forget about it as soon as possible.......
T.T

confused

2008-03-30T12:03:00.003+08:00

sometimes....
i dun really understand what elders are thinking...
or i dun understand them at all....
this morning....
my mum was cleaning the washing machine....
there's one part which mum cant handle....
then mum asked me to do her a favor...
i try to teach mum to do it...
but mum refused to learn...
and kept claiming that she cant do it.....
so stubborn....
i just hoping that mum can do that by herself
not because i refuse to help mum...
but i think that mum might need to learn to clean it
if not,how mum going to clean it when i further my study away from home???

i'm star

2008-03-26T22:22:00.001+08:00

You are The Star

Hope, expectation, Bright promises.

The Star is one of the great cards of faith, dreams realised

The Star is a card that looks to the future. It does not predict any immediate or powerful change, but it does predict hope and healing. This card suggests clarity of vision, spiritual insight. And, most importantly, that unexpected help will be coming, with water to quench your thirst, with a guiding light to the future. They might say you're a dreamer, but you're not the only one.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

Iriver

2008-03-23T22:10:00.008+08:00

i get to know this brand from my friend recently.....
i really like it.....
slim....
sweet color...
it's really nice design....
but....is it available in malaysia???
i check its website....
www.iriver.com
haiz.....all the product r really nice

Morning

2008-03-22T11:55:00.007+08:00

I always feel lazy to go get breakfast on weekend…..
Even I feel hungry…. I’ll try to tell myself that I’m not…..
So I only can rely on my mum to buy breakfast for me….
But sometimes….when mum was a bit busy…..
I have to solve it myself….

My way is….
Try to find everything can eat in refrigerator…….
Well, isn’t a kind of ways to finish all the junk foods that my family can’t finish during CNY????

When I woke up this morning…..the temperature is so comfortable…..
I just want to keep staying in my cozy bed for centuries….
After a while…. I heard rains dropped on my roof top……
I can actually feel the rain drops split into smaller rain drops…..
The air I breathed was a bit cool....
It’s just very comfortable and cozy…..
I couldn’t find another word to express what I felt at that moment…..but wonderful…..

Meanwhile….the rain turned heavily…….
It’s not more wonderful…..but a sense of worry….
When will it turn lighter or stop???
I like raining day….. (but not heavily rain of course)
It’s because the sky will be in perfect baby blue…..with big rainbow and cool, fresh air…..after the rain….
but i can sure that....
Come rain or shine….. I’ll be safe in my home with my beloved family….

my dream room

2008-03-19T20:56:00.017+08:00

i personally like the red color scheme room....it's my style...
hoping my room can be exactly like this!!!

this room is beautiful and fancy....but it just too pink for me......

i'm a dreaming girl

2008-03-19T19:38:00.003+08:00

i'm totally a dreaming girl...
dreaming no matter days and nights
dreaming no matter studying or eating....
dreaming all the time seems not to be a good thing to me.......
especially in class.....it's even worst.....
if i keep on dreaming....i can sure that my dream will never comes true.....

hazy morning

2008-03-16T15:28:00.002+08:00

it's around 8 in morning...
when i was on the way going to tuition by bicycle....
i passed by the paddy field...
that was a hazy morning....
everything look so blur in haze.....
i enjoyed in this passing fancy very much
in reality....
sometimes is good to act stupid...
coz reality is some kind of hurt....
is better to stay in haze sometime....

moody me

2008-03-16T15:07:00.003+08:00

this short break seems to a very bore week....
coz of the tuitions.....
everyday....wake up at 7 and sleep at 11.....
this habit...make me feel very very sleep after 11.....
maybe this is a good phenomenon....right???
i hope i can reduce the times that i sleep in class an much as possible.....

Trip

2008-03-08T14:20:00.009+08:00

Recently…..
I visit to MISA and Petrosains….
At the beginning, I thought MISA will as interesting as I expect it’ll be….

But it’s an adverse….
All I can conclude about MISA is just “boring and not worth for RM28++” (because I pay for student price….is for a normal adult….it could cause you RM38)
First…we visited to the “Beast Zone”…..
We thought there’ll be strong blowing winds….and some vibration….good sound effects….
But the truth is…the “wind” just blow for about 20 seconds with a few flashy lights….and that’s all…
Please la…..are u kidding me??? This is in count of boring…. Even primary students do think do…….
Then, we’re visit to those ordinary information….that was really not cool at all…..
I really feel disappointed after they told me that we’ll not be able to watch the 4D theatre…..
Omg….
On another hand …
The Petrosains was really amazing….
I was shock coz I thought it’ll be very bore and meaningless before I go….just RM7 for an normal adult…. Reasonable……
All the information inside were interesting….
The volunteer inside all looks nice….
And I more thing I wanted to mention is that the computers that provides information to visitor in Petrosains is apple product….

Wow….really jieng…haha
We really have great memories in Petrosains….i took a video of sapphire….it’s really funny….
But cant show at here la…girls need some secrets….
2 hours really not enough for us to visit Petrosains…..many things I dun really have time to see the detail things….really nice experience
After visit to both places ….then is shopping time….
This time….we’re going to Berjaya Times Square….
Coz snail is there….only chui chui, jie ying and me continue our journey…….
Coz we dun have that much credits to shop…. We decide to watch a movie…..
I wish to watch Vintage Point at the first….coz snail strongly recommended it!!!
But coz of the time problem….we choose to watch a movie called Martian Child…..
It is a story about family issue….kinda touching…..but not us….coz we keep mention about the time…so….no really in mood…..but it is a nice movie though….
I really like the way they talk…..they make me laugh…..
But there’re not many people in cinema that day…..is it the fact of movie or the time??
Anyway….this trip is not perfect but memorable…..

me and sapp

me, sapp, j.ying & chui2

All the girls

me

careless

2008-03-04T22:12:00.003+08:00

i kinda blur recently.....
always forget this....forget that....
my life now is such a mess.....
3 subjects not passed.....
extremely disappointed to myself....
i cant believe i write NaO & MgO2 in chemistry...
is it the ego thing again???
coz i always do feel very confident about chemical formula....
i cant believe that i did make this kind of unforgivable mistake....
wat a huge slap to me....

exam suvks

2008-03-01T00:20:00.004+08:00

i had my 1st monthly exam passed few days ago....
the exam was sucks....
is all my fault....
but there is nothing that i can do to change the result....
it's too late....
so sad and even feel a little bit of depressed.....

i always feel that i dun have any passion in science....
teachers said that if u got passion in a subjects....u wont feel tired and bore....
i can understand...
i try to force myself to fall in love with physics,chemistry and maths....
it's really hard...
it need a lots of contributions....
times....determinations....concentrations....
i dunno whether i can make it or not...
but i want to have a try...
i cant let my self regret in the future...
i really need to think further for my future...
study study study
this is the only things that i can do to save my future.

monthly test 1

2008-02-26T22:15:00.003+08:00

exam
what a terrible word to me

dream

2008-02-22T17:43:00.004+08:00

some people said that....
dream is the reflection of the bottom of ur heart and what u worried and thinking about....
sometimes i cant even remember what my dreams about after i woke up....
so i think that those are not really important...not harmful to me...
but recently... i was frightened by nightmares.... i woke up from nightmare with sweat and fearful feelings....
the nightmares are not really the same....but have certain relations....
they all about school....and exam....
in those nightmare....i'm scared....worried...something bads happen...everything fall apart...everything was in a mess...
i woke up when i cant take that fearful anymore every time....
does these dreams means that i'm feeling nervous and worried about my study and the coming exam???
i think so....
i hope it will never happen again....
coz i really afraid the feeling when open my eyes with such fearful

Jerks

2008-02-20T19:47:00.005+08:00

wat a disaster today....
i'm extremely pissed off....
they are really irritating and annoying......
i dun care about the "fart" thing.....it just a very very small matter.....
all the human being need to fart....
i dun understand wat r those jerks were thinking.....
isn't their life is in their hands???
how could they blame me and sapp.....
it's ridiculous,isn't it????
i even angry that they said that they'll never do "math revision" with me,sapp and wynn ever again... coz we r that kind of ppl who always not satisfied when paying money....
EXCUSE ME....did i ever win a lot then stop playing???
itn't i edi give a treat when i win??? even someone who wins more than me also dun did it....and sapp also said that not worth it....
then how could that jerk said that???
did we put a knife a side ur neck to force u to play???
DID WE???
i juz wonder....r they hav wrong sex??? they probably r those aunties who always like to gossip at the market....

their parents should really feel shameful....
and i feel sorry for their future wife........

Secret

2008-02-18T22:19:00.004+08:00

i know i used to be a "8" person....i know that is not right to see other's ppl message without the owner permission....but sometimes curious will lead ppl to do something that wrong...
but actually knowing those secrets are totally not good things....
especially for ppl like me who hav a "big mouth"....who cant really keep secret...
really suffer a.....suddenly feel so regret to get to know the secret...
it makes me feel awkward...
feel very hard during conversation with friends coz worried that i might tell all things out....it's very suffer when u know something but u cant tell....
the best solution for me now is just forget....pretend i dunno anything....

CNY almost end

2008-02-13T19:01:00.003+08:00

Chinese new year almost end....
i've enjoyed these few days very much!
thx for my friends and family....
how about all my friends??i hope them have really nice and sweet memories as i am
well....i really do feel happy and guilty at the same time
coz i don't even open or touch my books and homeworks....
it's even worse that when i was doing my homeworks today....
i found out that there are many things that i forget and even dun understand...
so sad....feel ashamed...

thx god...

2008-02-04T17:18:00.001+08:00

thx god...
ms.lim forgive us....
if not??i cant imagine....
the next problem is....is mr.chia going to teach us for chemistry??
omg.....
if this is the truth....i cant imagine what our life is going to be....definitely scary
i really do miss pn.norawati(our chemistry teacher)....
hope she and her baby are fine and healthy....and return to school as fast as possible.....^^

well... since everyone edi start study....i cant left way to far from them....
the rabbit and turtle story is not going to happen in reality...
no one will wait for me de....
so i must start studying...

cny come really close edi....
all the preparations had been done...
very look forward to cny.....
love it or hate it...this is the last cny for me during high school.....
next year....we all old edi...haha(all >18...include me)
definitely very appreciate all the memories with u all...
no matter is sweet or painful....
we pass it through together....
thx god that i've meet u all....
u all really do make my life wonderful....

mess

2008-02-02T23:18:00.001+08:00

aiyo...need to tidy up my room AGAIN
next time better dun clean it too early...
coz it really need to be tidy up again before sis come bac
omg... tired le...
CNY is really close now....
kinda feel the atmosphere of joyful and happiness....
CNY is really a festival that brings all the family members together...
feel warm when having dinner together...
although sometimes will have some conflicts between us...
but i still love my families...

i like the way that my families love me....
but i'm not treating them as nice as they treat me...(some of them)
coz i'm not good in express my feelings in words...especially face to face...
i know it's not be a good thing to me....
i juz too protecting myself....(but always not at the right moment)
even to family members...
i try to be a caring family member...
but what i get was just some scolds....
maybe they think that i'm not mature enough to tell them what to do....
then why they ask my opinion???isn't it weird???
at the end...i dun like to share my feelings with my families anymore(especially my dad)
i used to say "i dunno, dun ask me."
sometimes i even refuse to answer parents questions...
coz sometime i juz very emotional
sorry mum,
i really do love u, mum....muaks

Opps i did it again....

2008-01-31T22:35:00.001+08:00

sorry,mr.ong...i absence for,muet tuition again...
when i open my eyes again...edi 6 o'clock
OMG.... i juz feel very awful...
coz i'm wasting parent's money for the expensive tuition fee....
i always feel guilty when i sleep or not paying full attention during class.
sometimes,i'll imagine that wat will happen if i cant further my study in university... i cant accept it...
it's really a nightmare to me...

in class...there are some people that really irritating
i dun understand what they were thinking.
why they dun even feel ashame or sorry about what they had done...
but still think that everyone have the responsibility...
i know everyone should have responsibility for the incident...
but have they ever think that their attitude and behavior??
how dare they say so...
even i know this is a bit selfish...
but i really think that this is all their fault...
can they ever think about our report marks???

CNY

2008-01-30T22:37:00.002+08:00

Chinese New Year is really around the corner...so excited...but at the same time...i just lose my attention in the classroom....always day dreaming about CNY...this is really not a good thing...coz all the lesson are important...further more...i cant even remember last year lessons...now really facing huge problems...
hope i can be concentrated again after CNY...if not...nobody can ever help me again....

monday blue

2008-01-28T22:57:00.001+08:00

haiz...weekends always pass extremely fast...without completing my plan....perhaps it had not been done ever... so frustrated... procrastination is always bother me...why i just do not have that determination to catch up others... i really do want to study...but i just cant... i know this is no excuse...i must try as hard as i can... i don't want to be what i was in form 5... so disappointed...

ok...that's enough for the sadness... life cant always full filled with emo... and i 'm not that kind of girl... i want to be cheerful girl...so have to do my homework lo... cant let procrastination lead my way again...

176???

2008-01-25T16:07:00.002+08:00

i just cant believe it.176???are u kidding me?i think i really do get extremely bad luck recently...but i really don't have time to feel sorry for myself.all i can do is just start working hard...as i don't want to feel ashame anymore.after going through these TRAGEDY...i really need to be real tough

KEEP HOLDING ON by AVRIL LAVIGNE
You're not alone
Together we stand
I'll be by your side, you know I'll take your hand
When it gets cold
And it feels like the end
There's no place to go
You know I won't give in
No I won't give in

Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

So far away
I wish you were here
Before it's too late, this could all disappear
Before the doors close
And it comes to an end
With you by my side I will fight and defend
I'll fight and defend
Yeah, yeah

Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
[Keep Holding On lyrics on http://www.metrolyrics.com]

Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

Hear me when I say, when I say I believe
Nothing's gonna change, nothing's gonna change destiny
Whatever's meant to be will work out perfectly
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

La da da da
La da da da
La da da da da da da da da

Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

Keep holding on
Keep holding on

There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

today is really not my day

2008-01-24T23:00:00.002+08:00

i really get a lots of frustrated today.the jpj test and the muet result.all i can conclude is today is really not my day.i really thought i can pass it...but i just don't nail it in the end.i think it just kinda envy things as everything is not good for me today.i know i am kinda self assessment when i think like this.but i cant do anything.i just angry,sad,desperate.maybe i just over confident all the time.i believe this is one of my characteristic.it really feels bad when what u thought,what u've done,and consequences are not exactly what u expected it to be.
about the muet test,i really have no idea.although i act like i just want to get band 3 at the first time(at least)...but that is really not me...i am the kind of person who always dream big and hope big...with the result...i just feel sad...i thought i can do better...but anyway...all my dreams always end up like this...i used to deal with it.
now,i just hope that tomorrow's sun will shine my day...

The big day...24 jan 2008

2008-01-23T23:51:00.001+08:00

tomorrow is really a big day for me...
jpj test and muet result
kinda nervous...
anxious
really have no ideas what will happen tomorrow...
normally...i wont get in sleep early the day before those big days
did i really nervous??
yes...i surely answer yes
i just don't know what will happen tomorrow
too many variables
the day after tomorrow...
what will it be?
only god know it
i just really hope that i can passed the jpj test
and i hope i can get good result in muet
although i don't think i 've done a good job in muet before
but i still hope for it
am i too greedy and not realistic??
i know...
i used to be a very day dreaming person...
always imagine....
in the bottom of my heart...
i do really hope all my dreams will come true...
k...time to sleep...
gdnite

god...plz let me passed...

2008-01-22T23:04:00.001+08:00

i really need to pass my jpj test...
i want it so bad...
i really don't do well in the parking section..
i must try as hard as i could to pass
i wont do it second time
sure no
definitely thousands of no

besides...the muet result is going to come out on Thursday too...
what a disaster
both come in a same day...
almost get crazy....